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“I love My Daughter but I’m Fu**ing Exhausted”- A Tired Mother

by | December 4, 2018

The other day I wrote an article on how being a single parent doesn’t have to suck. I think I’m going to make it a daily read for myself. While I stand by every word that I wrote, some days are just actually going to suck, and that’s OK because probably the next day won’t. I love my daughter but I am fu**ing exhausted!

I see you, single mom powering through, getting shit done on your own, holding yourself together (in public anyway). I applaud you. I know there are nights that you sit there alone wondering what the hell happened to my life and then, there are days where you are so gloriously thankful for your new situation and you wouldn’t change a thing.

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I Love My Daughter But I Am Exhausted

I recently became a single mother, for the second time. I don’t know what made me go down the relationship route again, as I swore to myself after the breakup of my first marriage that I never would. Well anyway, I did and it didn’t work out but I got my beautiful daughter out of it, so it wasn’t a complete soul-crushing waste of my good years.

Picking up the pieces has been absolutely f**king exhausting. Having gone from being a stay at home Mom to three kids in a beautiful big home, I’m now a single mom, working two jobs, living in the worlds tiniest (albeit, ridiculously cute) apartment with my 4-year-old daughter. It’s been quite an adjustment. My two teenage boys wanted to try living with their dad as they hadn’t lived with him for over 10 years. It was a heartbreaking decision for me to make, but I let them go.

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So now it’s just myself and my daughter. I really do love the girly time that we have together. We share a bedroom and it’s decorated with pinks and purples and all kinds of nauseating princess sh*t, I actually secretly kind of love it though. She’s the sweetest little thing ever, funny as hell (she gets that from me) and smart as a tack, an absolute pleasure to be around, but my God, she has me absolutely f**king exhausted. I don’t know if it’s a 4-year-old thing or if it’s because of the family split, but she will not leave me alone, EVER. Don’t get me wrong, I love my daughter but I am exhausted. 

She always has to be on me, or touching me, following me etc. I actually don’t get a second to myself from one end of the day to the other, unless she’s in school for those precious 9 hours a week. I work from home during the week, it’s really been a life-saver, but it’s ridiculously hard to type with a kid hanging out of me all the time. Most nights she even sleeps with me, and by sleep “with” me, I mean across me. Every night I have to battle with her to eat dinner, take a bath and go to bed. Every. Single. Night. There’s no one to tag team with and sometimes I think I’m losing my mind. On the weekends I do get a bit of a break, she goes to her dads so that I can waitress the three nights. I feel so guilty that she’s gone all weekend, but I’m sure she loves it. I miss her terribly when she’s gone but I am begging for a break when she’s home.



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Being a single parent is hard, it’s scary and it’s lonely, but it’s also empowering AF. In the 6 months since my relationship broke down, I have achieved more personally and professionally than I ever have before. It’s also made me realize that I am way, way stronger than I ever could have imagined. I probably sound like a whiny b*tch and I do realize how much worse off we could be, and I love my daughter but I am fu**ing exhausted.

Do you feel the same, once in a while? Let me know in comments. 


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Julie Nealon

Associate Editor, USA | Contactable via Julie@raisevegan.com

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